Happy New Year

Dear Comunidad,

¡Feliz Navidad y próspero año nuevo!

I have an aversion to New Year’s Resolutions. Always have. I do believe in constantly growing as a person and as a Christians.  I want to focus more intentionally on a few overarching values this year, areas where I constantly fall short.

I will be kinder.

I will be more generous.

I will be more patient.

I will embrace silence and stillness.

I will be more loving and more willing to accept love from others.

We can’t grow and thrive in a vacuum, or at least I can’t. I need your help in becoming a better person this year. I need your friendship, your understanding, your patience, and your love.

How are you committed to grow this year?

Recibir a Cristo,


The Gospel Should Be Enough…but it’s not!

Dear Comunidad,

I just want to start off by saying that I have missed blogging here as of late. December is always a busy time of year for me – wrapping up current projects, closing the books, preparing for the year to come. Due to some new circumstances, December is turning out to be even busier than usual. However, I think that I am back. I have one more week of lots of projects. I have decided to take some down-time during the week between Christmas and New Years. With that being said….

I love blogging about the intersection of faith and community. I love blogging about the intersection of faith and politics/culture. I love living at the intersection of faith, community and culture even more than blogging about it. I love being in relationship with people that I share faith with, people who can come to the table in love to talk about important issues that we may or may not agree on.

Well…only sometimes and often only in theory!

I think that while we are called to live relationally, I also believe that relational living has the potential to harm more than help. The reality of living in community with people who tolerate more than accept is painful. This happens when certain boundaries are crossed, when entitlement creeps in, when people begin to feel justified in ways they clearly aren’t. These situations usually originate from an unequal and unhealthy power dynamic, whether real or perceived, a nuance that typically only boils down to semantics.

My truth is that…

I believe in the Gospel.

I believe in the Kingdom of Godde.

I believe that we are called to be relational.

I believe that I am Godde’s child, made in the perfect image of the Divine.

Yet, I am not convinced that the current community of faith I find myself in is healthy for me. In fact, I know that it isn’t. I knew that more than a year ago when certain events transpired. I know for sure that it isn’t healthy for them (but that is an Eva-ism for another day). I am not sure how I can continue to go to church Sunday after Sunday. I fail to see what good can come from me continuing to fake feeling included and accepted, when in reality I only feel tolerated.

Quick sidenote – this post was originally inspired by some trends and behavioral patterns I was witnessing at my church that were making me increasingly uncomfortable. Sometimes there is a fine line between being in community with people and people being all up in each other’s  business. I was noticing the latter at my church. I was noticing that conversations traveled throughout the church and not by way of the person who actually owned the particular narrative.

I noticed this behavior being couched in “concern” for the original party involved and that people were ensuring that said person would be “adequately supported” by the community. Sound’s quaint, right? It ain’t that cute though. It’s gossip. Sharing  a narrative that is not one’s own without that person’s consent is gossip, plain and simple!

My church has a track record in that regard and that track record ain’t cute either. Anyway, that is neither here nor there at this point since clearly this post went in a whole other direction…

Being at church has become painful. Being a part of the Kingdom and sharing the Gospel should be enough, right? It should transcend all else, right? It shouldn’t matter that we have little to no other common ground. It shouldn’t matter that they aren’t affirming, that they believe that I shouldn’t be afforded equal rights. It shouldn’t matter that they only give lip-service to “diversity” and “tolerance” but do very little to live that out in their lives. It shouldn’t matter that people openly pray to have their friend and loved ones “delivered from homosexual sin” and that they expect me to not be hurt by this. It shouldn’t matter that people feel entitled to sit in judgment on my life, to freely weigh in on my life as if you get a vote in my decision making process. My life is not a Democracy that they get to participate in.

None of this should matter because the Gospel should transcend. The Gospel should transform. The Gospel should do a lot of things….but it doesn’t. I should stop here and state that I fully believe in the majesty and power of Godde, it’s just Godde’s people who I have little faith in.

The Gospel should transcend all of these things, but it just doesn’t. Perhaps I am too broken or we are too broken, or the world is too broken, or all of the above.  Being in community does not feel restorative or redemptive or healing right now in my life, especially when it actually feels invasive, when it feels hurtful, when I don’t feel accepted,…..like right now!

Recibir a Cristo,


Dear Comunidad,

Welcome! Seeking God in Community was born out of living in community and attempting to sort through the challenges and blessings that accompany it. Community can be many things, even contradictory at times. While it can be supportive and safe, it can also be a place of pain and divisiveness. What makes Christian community so unique compared to others is that all challenges and rewards of community are experienced and worked out in community; at least that is what I am learning.

A little about me – my name is Eva. I am Latina of Cuban heritage. I am also white. I am queer. I am a blogger. I am a freelance writer. I love nature. I try to love Christ and live generously, though I always fall short a lot of the time.

I am daughter, a sister, a friend. I strive for authenticity and for what is real. I am always honest, but can’t guarantee that I will always be consistent. I get it wrong more often than I get it right, but it isn’t for lack of good intentions or tenacity. I love my friends and family dearly, and I am loyal and true (to a fault at times). I trust until I have a reason not to. I have a tendency to put others before myself, but have learned the nuances between generosity and taking advantage of someone.

I am guided by a need to live in a just society, where all people are valued as members of mankind, not prejudiced based on highly subjective and socially constructed hierarchies. Whether this emanates from a Christ-centered axis or not is still a matter of debate and discussion in my life. I suppose that is part of the reason I am here.

Taking part in Christian community on the margins – as a queer Latina – is complicated. Seeking God in Community is my attempt to unpack some of that complexity.

Recibir a Cristo,

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